I feel like I'm falling apart, and I'm not even 22 yet. What is up with that?! My knees are bad, my back constantly hurts, my hips are achy and my husband is going bald. I guess that last one is more towards Felix getting old, but I feel the burden too. He denies that he is losing any hair whatsoever, but I can tell that it is indeed thinner than it was only 4 months ago. Maybe I'm stressing him out? I know that I'm stressing myself out, that's for sure.
I feel like I'm ready for a break from life. Well, at least from school anyway. I want to just drop out and become what I was always afraid of becoming: the mother who dropped out of college to have children. I never wanted this... until now. I have been so stressed out lately that the only thing I can do is cry. I don't know how long I'll be able to keep up balancing school, work, and doing all the house-wife duties.
I tried to cope at work by being creative:
I was working in the visitor lot just north of the MOA, and I have to hand out little rectangle pieces of paper with tape called "validators" to allow visitors to park there. It looks like a waste of time, but this tree saved me for the first part of my shift.
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Ah Marie, I know how you feel! Not about being in school and working and being married, but about being stressed to the max! And about feeling like you are falling apart...I wish I could tell you that things are better on the "dropped out and having kids" side, but it's pretty stressful here too. In my opinion there is nothing wrong with taking a break to reevaluate things. It is really hard to go to school when you're not learning what you eventually want to be doing. I definitely know that feeling. Try to relax and clear your mind out and find out what you really want to do. Pray about it and you'll figure out what it right for you guys. The world wont end if you don't finish college right away. School's not going anywhere :)
Aw... I like the tree.
I can imagine life is stressful! Honestly, I'm so glad I got married -after- I was done with school. For me and Jordan to both be in school would be a lot to handle, methinks. (I don't know how people get married AND have babies while going to college.)
How much longer do you have? If you decide to take a break, be weary, because it's a lot harder to get back into the school groove again. I hope things look up, and your Heavenly Father can always guide you toward your right path, too. :D
Good luck with everything!
Ugh...I hate those parking people. I won't disclose how many times I had to lie to them (in the name of catering) to park in their lots. They always gave me the stink eye (deservedly, I suppose).
Anyway, you need a new job. Those people were always angry, and I think it has something to do with the tiny box they sit in for hours on end asking people if they are a student.
You know what else I hate? That license plate reading Mitsubishi.
Good luck with the hair loss. You know what they always say--once the husband goes bald, the wife is soon to follow. Ok, they don't say that, but could you imagine if they did?
You know what you need? A little S.T. Lewis. Don't drop out of school, whatever you do. You need that HFL degree more than it needs you.
That is all.
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